[Note: This post is a follow up to this post from yesterday]
I‘m sorry for the really vague ending to that last post.
I’ve been reluctant to talk about something, but it’s long overdue. So here goes …
When I first started this blog after I gave up dieting I had hoped to use it as a way to chronicle my journey out of my eating disorder. I never imagined in a million years that it would have the impact it’s had.
While sometimes I find it hard to believe, I’ve been blessed to have connected with so many people who visit here daily. I get emails from all over the world every day. But what really moves me is when I get an email from someone telling me they’ve spent hours reading over my entire blog and somehow I’ve inspired them.
Some of you have left comments here and on my old blog since I started blogging about health and fitness in August 2006 ~ it’s amazing to think how much we’ve all grown and changed since then. It’s no exaggeration to say you feel like family to me and you’ve taught me so much.
So here’s what’s been going on
Over the past several months I’ve talked with a lot of you about what you’re struggling with. You’ve told me that you sometimes feel like you’re not good enough, that the fear of failure paralyses you and stops you from doing the things you love, and that you’re afraid others will find you lacking in some terrible way if you reveal your true thoughts and feelings. I’ve wanted to help you but I worried that I would be revealing too much of myself and infringing on the privacy of others.
Plus, when I looked at how I transformed from not liking myself much to falling in love with the real ‘me’, I realised I did the opposite of everything the experts said I should.
Oh. And I’m also a bit of a perfectionist. OK “a bit” is an understatement … I’m a full-blown perfectionist but I’m all about accepting my flaws.
Because I’ve come to accept the fact that there’s no way I’m ever going to recover from perfectionism, I realize that if I’m really going to help women like you, it has to be important. As far as I’m concerned you deserve the very best I have to offer.
So I’m seriously considering doing this
Despite my concern about letting you into my personal life, I’m seriously considering pulling back the curtain and showing you everything I know about how to become a confident, warm and open woman who’s comfortable in her own skin, and uses her short time on earth to do what matters rather than please others. (I’d have loved to have had this information two years ago when I was so confused about what to do when I no longer had dieting and exercise to distract me from my problems.)
If I do this it will be a lot of work
I’m excited about sharing stuff with you, but you probably know that my small ideas quickly get out of hand and turn into big ones. As well as posts and articles I’m thinking about e-books, worksheets, animated videos, forums, ninja Powerpoint presentations, MP3s, webinars, mentoring and Q & A sessions. I suspect I’m dreaming of an aeroplane when you only want a bicycle!
I only want to do this if there’s enough interest and I know what you really want.
I’m curious ~
- What do you think?
- Should I do this?
- Would you be interested?
Your feedback and thoughts are the fuel that keeps me going. I don’t even want to think about devoting the time and energy to this unless it’s something you’d find helpful.
Anyway, if you have a moment, please leave a comment below and let me know what you think. It would mean a lot to me and I’ll do my best to respond to each and every one of you. [You can also send me an email by clicking here if you want to be more private.]
PS: If you know anyone else who would be interested in knowing all the secret squirrel stuff about self-confidence and self-love please share this post with your friends and community.