I am not asking you to like, want or enjoy uncomfortable feelings. In fact, let’s get rid of the whole acceptance word altogether (here and in the self-love world as well). Let’s make room for uncomfortable feelings instead.
I am meant for more than what I have become. However, there is no room in my world for any of the things I want, so I sit in silence and let the storm rage within. Silent. Afraid to offend. Threatened with being left alone for wanting to be me.
It’s when we get stuck in our head and what we’re thinking diminishes our experiences of the present moment that there’s a problem. Ruminating about past event or predicting future calamities can also trigger painful emotions that make us feel like shit.
Making happiness the goal of our lives is what will make us fundamentally unhappy.
I reflect and cast back as light my imperfections and dwell as a permanent resident in gratitude.
It wasn’t until I told myself that it was normal to cry yourself to sleep on a semi-regular basis that my soft crying exploded into gasping, vehement sobs.
I’m impatient. Things always take much longer than I want them to. It’s a huge character flaw that has no remedy.
I believe that love changes everything.
I believe that intimacy is the doorway to heaven.
I believe that loving others transform our lives.
I believe that looking outward is better than looking inward.
Getting dressed is the first step. A pair of stretchy legging with enough substance to hold me in. A sports bra that still fits and a singlet with built in support. I have boobs now that need restraining. I put on my socks and sneakers. I look in the mirror and ignore the judging voice that says I look so much bigger than the last time I wore these clothes.
You are the person who bears the same burden of life as everyone else. Perhaps you think there is something wrong with you because everyone else seems to be so much more together than you are, but we’re all sharing the same secrets.
Katie P meets MAC
There will never be a day when the thoughts in my head don’t tell me I’m not good enough, skinny enough or young enough. I can go around pretending otherwise but it wouldn’t be true.
In the last few days I’ve been studying this new training system that allows me move toward the people and things that are most important to me without letting the fear and pain in my life hold me back.