It wasn’t until we moved this weekend that I realised that I needed to get away. It feels like I’ve cut the cord to my old life and now I am free. Free to start afresh where there are no memories of my old life, in my old suburb.
Two and a half years ago I threw away everything that belonged to my married life. I started again without a toaster or a vacuum cleaner or an iron.
Next weekend, my boyfriend and I will move to a beach house on a hill on Sydney’s northern beaches. From the lounge, kitchen and bedroom we will have views over the park, past the trees and out to the Pacific.
Who you are as a person is important to the world. You are the only person who can do the job of being you. Everything about you is exactly the way it needs to be for you to fulfil your purpose on this earth.
An alien on a roller coaster would think that every descent leads to death and every ascent sends him towards his home among the stars.
Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
When you have a disordered behaviour (like disordered eating or substance abuse) you use it to cope with stress.
I believe that love changes everything.
I believe that intimacy is the doorway to heaven.
I believe that loving others transform our lives.
I believe that looking outward is better than looking inward.
That voice in my head never goes away. It taunts me and torments me. Sometimes I wonder if I’m crazy … Surely all the work I’ve done on myself should at least quieten that voice? It hasn’t made any difference.
Getting dressed is the first step. A pair of stretchy legging with enough substance to hold me in. A sports bra that still fits and a singlet with built in support. I have boobs now that need restraining. I put on my socks and sneakers. I look in the mirror and ignore the judging voice that says I look so much bigger than the last time I wore these clothes.
Ghandi’s top ten fundamentals for changing the world.
There’s a curious phenomenon that happens when you decide to do something different. It is rarely spoken about other than in hushed voices or tearful complaints. When you start off doing something new, all hell breaks loose.
Every morning I can’t wait to get out of bed and get the day started. Each day I only want to do two things.
1. Enjoy the world 2. Change the world
So far, mission (1) is going rather well. Sadly, mission (2) is lagging behind.
