This evening I was getting dressed to go out for a drink. It is colder this evening so I went looking for some black socks to go with my boots and black pants. There, pushed to the back of my drawer were the socks that Mr Katie bought me during my pirate craze. They are… Read More

The pain that I cause exhausts me There is no relief in the light The darkness beckons with its lure of a different kind of pain Red Raw Jagged around the edges Blackened blood congealed around wounds Self inflicted harm Bingeing on food now seems inadequate The siren song of oblivion is sung by different… Read More

You came to me at the masked ball with your face disguised. Although there was something familiar in your words, my judgment was blurred by the wine I had consumed. You took me to a shadowed room so your anonymity was complete. We danced the dance of courtship and then the dance of foreplay. I was thrilled… Read More

One thing I have learnt is that the unendurable stabbing pain in your heart that makes it difficult to breathe is a gift. It is the final step in the process that releases the arrival of wonderful things. It’s shit before sunshine. In every dark place, in every vortex of confusion and in every avalanche… Read More

The words I have written have been distorted and deformed and used against me. They have painted a picture of me that is untrue and unfair. It is true that I have left my husband but I wish to state publicly to the world that it was never because of who he was or what… Read More

This blog has moved. If you would like the address of my other more personal blog which is about my life outside health and fitness please email me thin-enough@optusnet.com.au Ignore this entire thing — this blog was censored, a new blog was started, the other blog was deleted, this one restored … I did it… Read More

What if there are two common, ordinary caterpillars who love each other dearly and enjoy lying around, eating leaves and being generally solid and predictable and then one day one of them gets the urge to build a cocoon? She tells the other caterpillar that the days of darkness and claustrophobia will be worth it… Read More

“Don’t consume yourself with thoughts and dreaming rather than living and experiencing” — Paula G I don’t believe in the big bearded God in the sky who doles out rewards and punishment depending on my actions. That is conditional love, and entirely how I was taught to love by my parents. If I am a good… Read More

Today I stand in gratitude for five  women who remind me of the miraculous power of unconditional love. It matters not if we are old or young, married or single, mums or childless, lean or carrying healing weight, contest dieting or intuitive eating, when we sit around a table and talk of our hopes and… Read More