Self Portrait 365|4

leather and stripes
Basically I hated every single photo I took today. I don’t know if it was my hair, or the way I was feeling, but I just look bloated and old in every frame. So in the end I just chose the best of a bad bunch.

I guess not every day is a good day … it has to be okay not to love yourself all the time. I was hoping I would feel better about myself by undertaking this project, not worse. Perhaps I just need to go and wash my hair or something.

The other problem I’m having is with the autofocus and self timer on my camera. I want to use a large aperture, but it means I have to be exactly in the right spot when I take the photo otherwise it comes out blurry. I have ordered a remote control off Ebay so let’s hope that eases my frustration.

Here are someone else’s words to think about today as I can’t seem to find any of my own.

Why did so many grown-ups want to be young, she wondered, when it took so long to grow old? It was like going on a million-mile road trip then wanting to turn around without getting out of the car.
― Pseudonymous Bosch, The Name of This Book Is Secret

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Technical Information

Camera model: Canon EOS 7D
F/stop: f/4
Exposure time: 1/25 sec
ISO speed: ISO-100
Focal length: 50mm
Post processing: Photoshop Elements
Filters: Adjust saturation | Duplicate Layer | Gaussian Blur | Blend Multiply 45% | Adjust levels

 

About KatieP

Embracing my midlife sexy while exploring modern love & relationships • Devoted to all things beautiful • Master of Arts in creative writing & non-fiction writing

10 thoughts on “Self Portrait 365|4

  1. Ah perception sucks sometimes, doesn’t it? I bet that most other people won’t see what you see.

    I saw some photos of myself yesterday doing the mud run and they were HORRENDOUS – I look like a weird gnome. But I bet that my friends wouldn’t see that.

    “Mama told me there’d be days like this…”

  2. I love the picture…and yesterday was stressful…today will be too..in fact a bunch of the days might be as I am waiting on a job offer.

    I’m terrified to change.

    So glad I have all these wonderful bloggers to distract me

  3. The picture is beautiful. Funny how we see ourselves isn’t how others do. For me, I see strength in your body language, ready to conquer the world. But I also see a softness and vulnerability in your eyes, like you are waiting for something wonderful to happen. Perception is our own and this is what I see.

  4. That is a great quote.

    Sometimes I just tell myself that in 10 years I’ll look back at this photo I hate of myself and wonder why I didn’t appreciate how “good” I looked back then!

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