This post started out differently. Then I deleted it. It sounded like I was blaming him for all my issues and it isn’t his fault. So he didn’t notice the frangipani in my hair today. Maybe he had more important things on his mind.
I don’t know any more ~ I am so confused. No matter what happens from here on in, things have irrevocably changed in my world and there is no going back to ‘before’.
My heart is split in two and lays shattered and bleeding on the floor. It is no wonder my husband doesn’t know what to do with me, I’ve been here all along and I barely recognise myself any more.
Maybe I’ve got some viral brain disease that is altering my perception of reality.
That must be it … it’s the only logical conclusion.