World Suicide Prevention Day • For Those Left Behind

world suicide day • for those left behind

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day and the media is (rightly) awash with articles and posts on how to keep ourselves and our loved ones safe. My black/inappropriate sense of humour would like to point out that I’m obviously not very good at keeping people alive so I’m going to leave it to the experts.

But all joking aside, today is an important day because it gives us a chance to talk about this epidemic of loss that sweeps the world.

If one person dies globally from completing suicide every 40 seconds, and almost 80% of those people are men, there are many, many wives, girlfriends and partners left behind. This post is for those who are still here and have to live with the grief and trauma of knowing someone who chose to end their life.

It’s not your fault

No matter what you did or didn’t do, no matter how much your loved the person who died, it’s not your fault. You didn’t see it coming, you had no way of knowing what would happen. Perhaps now as you look back, you can identify places where you could have done things differently, but at the time you didn’t have the perspective of hindsight. You did the best you could in the unfolding moments of life.

Other people will blame you

When someone completes suicide, people are left with the unanswerable question of ‘why?’ A question without answers makes people uncomfortable so they will transfer their discomfort to you. They will whisper about you behind your back and invent a history of exaggerated conflict or dysfunction within your relationship. You can’t control what other people think of you and the stories they invent to make themselves feel more at ease.  Trying to change other people’s minds is a waste of energy. Ignore them and move on.

It wasn’t always rainbows and roses

Loving someone who has a mental illness is not easy. It is more than likely that your relationship wasn’t full of honest communication, affection and support. There is no shame in acknowledging that you didn’t always live in blissful harmony. Just because a person is dead doesn’t automatically make them a saint. Death doesn’t erase or minimise the pain you suffered while that person was still alive. It’s normal to feel relief alongside grief and sadness.

At some point you have to let go

We all drag around our ghosts — the memory of our first boyfriend, the unrequited love of the person who didn’t love us back, the dream of the fairytale marriage that didn’t come true. The ghost of a dead lover is ever-present and all-consuming. He’s the first person you think about when you wake and the last person on your mind when you fall asleep. You feel angry, abandoned, alone and in agony. We keep our ghosts alive by letting them take up space in our thoughts, space that might be otherwise filled with light and love. When it’s time to let go, you’ll know it. Say goodbye and let him leave. Life is for the living.

If your religion isn’t helping, then you can change your mind

Whatever you believe about the afterlife will come into serious question when you lose someone to suicide. For some people, anticipating a heavenly reunion is a comfort but for others, their faith in the benevolence of the universe slips away. You can believe whatever you want to believe, believe in nothing at all, or simply put off making up your mind. It is perfectly okay to not know or to change your mind.

Love will come again

A heart that has loved so deeply can love again. You deserve to find happiness again. No one will ever take the place of your late partner, but you shouldn’t want them to. A new relationship will be exciting and scary, different and surprising. Love comes in all shapes and sizes, for a few years or for a lifetime. Be open to love and it will find you.


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If you or someone you know may be at risk of suicide contact
beyondblue 1300 22 46 36, Lifeline 13 11 14 or Salvo Care Line 1300 36 36 22.

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Embracing my midlife sexy while exploring modern love & relationships • Devoted to all things beautiful • Master of Arts in creative writing & non-fiction writing

16 thoughts on “World Suicide Prevention Day • For Those Left Behind

  1. Thank you for sharing this perspective, Katie. So powerful!
    Would you like to add your link to the linky on my post today – inviting bloggers to add their voices for #suicideprevention.

  2. I’ve read so many things on suicide, yet nothing has completely changed my mind. The only things stopping are 3 people. My Mom and my 2 closest friends. My Mom doesn’t know. I don’t have the heart to tell her what is going on with me. Knowing her, she’ll probably just say “You’re just going through a phase.” I’ve just had enough of this world and the people in it. I doubt I’ll ever be happy. Even my songwriting has gotten depressing. My newest song starts like this:
    “She wanted to go to Neverland…
    They found her with a gun in her hand
    The suicide note
    beside her wrote:…”

  3. I lost my dad Sept 13, 2015. He shot himself in the head. I’m still devastated. I live 2 hrs away so I wasn’t the one who found him but I’m haunted with images of what he MAY have looked like. I never saw him after he died I couldn’t have that image in my head. I’ve been made to feel like I made the wrong choice by my sister and my dad’s wife and her daughter. I know I made the right decision, I feel like I’m the only one who misses him so badly. I’ve tried therapy and I’ve been told that I’m doing everything right but nothing else has been offered.

  4. I’m going through this now. My husband of 45 years took his life in January I had left in November. I was tired and have health problems I did what was best for me. Now the guilt what if ?? You have very good points life is for the living. I’m not there yet I feel like I’m on a roller coaster and would like to get off.

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