Preview — Unravelled : A true story of longing, loss and love

by Katie Paul on March 15, 2013

book cover

On Tuesday March 12 at 10am I finished writing my memoir. If I had any say in the matter, this would be the cover of the book. The gorgeous photo is by Heather Landis and is part of her Abyss of the Disheartened series.

Here is what it is about…

At midnight, with fireworks exploding on the Sydney Harbour Bridge, in the sky above and from the top of city high-rises, a man who wasn’t my husband pushed me against the trunk of a gnarled old Moreton Bay Fig and kissed me. At the back of my mind I knew what we were doing was wrong, that we had crossed the line from flirting into something more dangerous, but I didn’t pull away. When the kiss ended, he breathed softly into my ear, ‘Happy New Year, my darling.’

At midnight, one year later, the New Year’s Eve fireworks were the only thing that remained the same.
My affair was over.
My husband was dead.
I had fallen in love with a man who I never expected to stay with me.

This is the story of the year my life unravelled and the three men who changed the trajectory of my life.

Unravelled is non-chronological memoir, weaving together the story of what transpired after my husband committed suicide with the events that led up to his death.

Did my affair set in motion the chain of events that led to my husband’s death? Was I responsible for what happened? Would losing my husband destroy the chance to find happiness with someone else?

Now I’m about to send my manuscript off to a professional editor who will read it with ‘fresh’ eyes and tell me if the story works and if there are any holes.

It is exciting to have finished a book that has taken two years to write. It is also terrifying to think that someone is going to look at it with a critical eye and point out what needs more work.

The words may change between now and the time it reaches the bookshops but here is a small taste of the opening scene.

A blond ambulance driver ushered us into a square windowless room. The sharp smell of industrial disinfectant rose from the nylon carpet.

‘A trauma counsellor will be with you shortly,’ he said, before disappearing through the door.

I perched on the edge of a grey plastic chair, my head bowed. Light from a naked fluorescent tube made my eyes ache. Simon sat next to me, his crisp lavender shirt and black pants making him look more like a doctor than someone accompanying a patient. I could hear voices outside in the corridor fading in and out. I wondered if Jack was here too. He wasn’t of course, they take dead bodies to a morgue, not a hospital.

‘I can’t sit here any longer,’ I said, after twenty minutes. ‘I can’t breathe. This was a stupid idea. Can we go now?’

‘Of course we can, baby,’ said Simon. ‘Where do you want to go?’

‘I need a drink. Let’s go to the pub.’

Half an hour later, after convincing an overweight male nurse that I didn’t need any psychological help, Simon and I walked down the road to St Leonards station to catch a train back to North Sydney. As the train approached the platform, I looked through the front window of the driver’s compartment. The driver’s short grey hair, blue shirt and bored look were the same, but it wasn’t Jack. ‘I’m dead you idiot,’ he said, ‘how could it be me driving the train?’ 

If you might like to read Unravelled, please let me know in the comments. It would be nice to know if anyone is actually going to buy it (and having potential readers will help me get agent/publisher interest). Thank you x

{ 48 comments… read them below or add one }

Corina/Rene Hennessy March 15, 2013 at 11:06 am

I am definitely going to buy it and read it. You are a brave and beautiful lady x

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 11:15 am

Thanks sweetie ♥

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Shelley Stark March 15, 2013 at 11:30 am

Of course, it’s a no brainer from me :).

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 11:36 am

Thanks lovely x

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RomaC March 15, 2013 at 11:31 am

ha ha.. how could I NOT want to buy and read it…

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 11:37 am

Thanks Roma ♥

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RomaC March 15, 2013 at 11:32 am

ps.. was chatting to Marieke Hardy the other day about you… told her to look out for you.. :)

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 11:37 am

*Eek* – how exciting – thank you x

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Magda March 15, 2013 at 12:59 pm

count me in :-)

xx

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 1:20 pm

Thanks Miss M x

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Sara Lake March 15, 2013 at 1:04 pm

Of course!~

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 1:21 pm

Cheers Sara ♥

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Suzanne March 15, 2013 at 1:12 pm

Sounds like an amazing story… will it be available in ebook?

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 1:22 pm

I would like there to be an ebook but I’m not sure how publishers decide.

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Liz N March 15, 2013 at 3:28 pm

I would love to read it Katie.

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Katie Paul March 15, 2013 at 7:47 pm

Thanks Liz :D

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Lorraine March 15, 2013 at 8:16 pm

I would also love to read it Katie.

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 12:04 pm

Thanks lovely Lorraine ♥

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Rose March 15, 2013 at 10:01 pm

I would love to read it too. Kindle edition? :)

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 12:03 pm

I hope so Rose :)

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Erika March 15, 2013 at 10:10 pm

I am a bit of a traditionalist. I would buy your book in a heartbeat. I am already wanting to read more.

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 12:04 pm

Thanks Erika x

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Em March 16, 2013 at 10:42 am

id buy it too as a hard back! :-)

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 12:04 pm

Cheers Em ♥

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Charmaine March 16, 2013 at 2:02 pm

Congratulations Katie! This is a monumental accomplishment and you should be so incredibly proud! I can’t wait to order my copy.

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 3:50 pm

Thanks Charmaine xxx

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Karen March 16, 2013 at 6:29 pm

I will definitely buy it. You are a beautiful writer and an amazing and brave woman.

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 7:14 pm

Thank you Karen ♥

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Julie March 16, 2013 at 6:39 pm

Katie, your book sounds incredibly intriguing. I’d love to read it. Congratulations on getting it finished – what an accomplishment!

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Katie Paul March 16, 2013 at 7:15 pm

Thanks lovely Julie xx

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Celynne March 17, 2013 at 3:56 am

I would definitely read it. It must feel so good to finally be finished writing it, but I imagine also frightening now that you have to wait for word from the editor. The nice thing about books is that, if one editor dislikes it, there are so many others out there!

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Katie Paul March 18, 2013 at 9:36 am

Thank Celynne ♥

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dana March 17, 2013 at 9:25 am

Count me in too. :)

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Katie Paul March 18, 2013 at 9:36 am

Cheers Dana x

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Ren March 17, 2013 at 10:10 am

Best of luck, Katie, I do hope you get published. It’s a great achievement.

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Katie Paul March 18, 2013 at 9:36 am

Me too Ren, thanks x

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Sue March 18, 2013 at 1:00 am

Definitely going to read it!

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Katie Paul March 18, 2013 at 9:36 am

Cheers Sue ♥

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B March 18, 2013 at 10:17 am

I’d pre-order it Katie :) Congratulations and good luck!

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Katie Paul March 20, 2013 at 5:49 pm

Thanks Miss B x

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Flick March 18, 2013 at 2:05 pm

Yes Yes Yes, have been waiting a long time for it to come out!

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Katie Paul March 20, 2013 at 5:49 pm

Cheers Flick ♥

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Pip April 1, 2013 at 11:52 pm

Yes please Katie :-)

Pip

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Katie Paul April 2, 2013 at 9:04 am

Thanks Pip x

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Madison S. May 1, 2013 at 5:08 am

I can’t wait to read the rest! :-)

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Katie Paul May 1, 2013 at 2:13 pm

Thanks Madison x

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Julie Ann May 2, 2013 at 6:46 am

I’d love to read your book.

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Katie Paul May 2, 2013 at 8:12 am

Thanks Jules ♥

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