Even after seven years, my blog isn’t very popular. I could never be called an influential Australian blogger. I’ve never won an award. The Prime Minister hasn’t invited me for morning tea.
I have written one post responsible for almost all my daily traffic. Large numbers of people researching ways to kill themselves end up on my site. Knowing this depresses me. I’ve had so many people say they were still going to kill themselves after reading my post, that I’ve had to turn off the comments.
More people read my words when I was a starving, over-exercising, body obsessed wreck than they do now. I’ve had serious thoughts about closing down this blog for some time.
But I’m not going to. I’m going to take advantage of the fact that no one reads this blog to write whatever I like. I’m going to forget about inspirational, positive or meaningful posts. I’m going to write about the raw, unvarnished, details of my life even if they are boring, petty and mundane.
I’m sure I’m meant to be building a brand or an online persona in case I become a world-famous author. But my book is as raw as it gets, so this blog should be too.
It’s 45° today in Sydney so perhaps the heat is melting my brain. Tomorrow I might change my mind. That’s one of my things, you know — constantly changing my mind. Ask my mother, she’ll confirm it.
In closing, I’d like to thank this week’s commenters who have called me sickening, disgusting and inappropriate. You’ve made me realise that even sanitised, censored posts will upset some people.
All I can say is “You ain’t seen nothing yet.”
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Meh. Hardly anyone reads my blog either. I’ve decided I just need to write for the fun of it – anything else is just too much work. Of course, I might change MY mind next week too.
And boo to the nasty commenters. Don’t like it? Don’t read it.
I’m with you Kerryn. Writing for fun — I need to do more of that!!
Oh Katie.
Blogging can be tough, and the reality of these Internet searches must be so very hard on you. Know that I love you and you are influential to me x
Thanks honey. Love you right back ♥
You do what you do, unapologetically. There’s no need to write to appease any of the masses. Your writing is a piece of you. A tiny sliver. I’m proud of you. And I thank you for you influence on me – you have been an inspiration in my life. Much love!
Thank you so much Miss T. Lots of love to you too x
I’m looking forward to the ‘raw.’
Oh and it’s 45 degrees here too, only that’s Farenheit…Brrr!
Thanks Laura. 45F is way too cold
Agree. That’s actually an average. It’s been colder and it certainly gets colder at night. Looking forward to Spring. Green and flowers yay.
I read
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And fuck those who nasty commenters
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Thanks Shelley x
I read. xxx
Thanks AWESOME one xxx
I’m rather looking forward to this change in direction.
Thanks Liz. As long as neither of us develop an attachment to the outcome ha ha
Write it raw Hunny, in all is glory. X
Thank you Vicky x
I’ve missed seeing your posts. And my blog has been around for about 4 years and I think 3 people read it. Sometimes. If they remember. I don’t care. I write when I feel like it.
You should too. It’s YOUR blog. If you want a brand or a niche or a purple poodle, do it. Delete the ugly comments. They are more about the commenter than about you. And there is too much ugliness in the world. We don’t need to advertise their version of it.
I’m looking forward to your next post.
Thank you Mary ♥
It matters not what anyone else thinks; I love reading your blog and find that often there are topics that are relevant in my own life and, if not, it’s very interesting to read what’s going on in your life on the other side of the world. Your writing is insightful, interesting, encouraging, and humorous too; so, please don’t shut down the blog! I’m excited about the next chapter!
Thanks Charmaine x