You know your heart is broken. You live with the pain everyday. It is that relentless ache in your chest and that empty feeling in your belly that won’t go away. You’ve felt it before – when someone you loved betrayed you – but this time your heart is broken because you feel you are the one who has betrayed you.
It’s how you look.
You’ve worked so hard to have the body of a fitness model, the size clothes that society tells us is sexy and attractive, but it keeps slipping away from you. You get to your ‘happy’ weight and then life gets in the way and the kilos come back. Your life seems to be all about that number on the scale.
Every meal is a battle that defines if you have a good day or a bad day. Not fitting into your favourite jeans makes you teary. Some mornings you wake with swollen eyes, fingers and ankles and you know why.
Tomorrow is that day that you will finally pull yourself together and get back on track but these days it always seems too hard. You are so hungry and tired that you can’t even think straight any more.
I’m here for you. I’m not here for the women who are content to gain and lose the same weight year after year and think it is just what you have to do to stay in shape. I’m here for the broken hearted.
I’m here to tell you that there is another way. For the broken hearted, dieting doesn’t work. You have to give up the fight once and for all.
And when you stop going in to battle with yourself, you will find an amazing peace and contentment with who you are. You might end up looking different to what you always imagined, but it won’t matter. The highs and lows of a fully experienced life will not send you running to food for comfort, or distracting yourself with restriction, they will just be the shit that happens.
One day, I promise, you will forget to eat, you will choose to make love rather than going to the gym, you will love your curves, and you will radiate aliveness from the inside. Visible ribs and protruding hip bones on other people will cease to make you envious, it won’t even matter. You will remember that a size 12 is not fat (and DD boobs are a blessing).
You can start today. Refuse to ever diet again and saddle up for the roller coaster ride of your life.
Unleash your unique self and tell the world to go and get fucked.
It works. I’m proof.